Moms are Women Too

Ladies, I am completely loving the entire woman empowering, survivor believing, standing strong together wave that we have been riding high on for awhile now. It seems like a long time coming, doesn’t it? It truly gives me hope and fills me with a sense of pride to be raising a strong and kick ass baby girl. It is my sincere hope that my daughter be an outspoken supporter and truthfully that my son is as well. There is one thing that has been weighing a little heavy on me though, I have noticed that while we are participating in so much woman empowering Moms are often not included.

Sometimes it seems that when we become mothers we become two different people, a woman as one and a mother the other. While we as women often feel like the only side that is visible is the mom side we try our hardest to still show the world, our children and most importantly ourselves who we were before they came along. While there has been an uproar in banning body shaming, slut shaming, and victim shaming, why does mom shaming not make the list? It is often difficult and disheartening to hear it from other mothers, but I have to be honest with you it is often frustrating and at times infuriating to get it from people who aren’t parents. I have always said, I was a much better parent, when I didn’t have children.

My family is preparing to make a trip out of the country this week and while I have a lot to pack before the trip, I am most anxious about the flight. Yes, I want to make sure that my babies are as comfortable as possible but my biggest stress is other people. Where the mom shaming ties in to all of this is my recent interaction on a Girls Love Travel board post. Now let me say that I think this site is an excellent resource and I have seen women from literally all over the world ban together to help a girl they don’t know traveling alone abroad who felt uncomfortable with how they were being treated by a man in a hostel. A woman on the site tagged another who was close by, and in a very short period of time that girl was picked up in a taxi by another member and safe! THAT is GIRL POWER. inspiring right? They also have rules in place that they call #GTLKindness which is so great in theory, but mom shaming is excluded from this “kindness” why?

I didn’t really follow the board much anymore but I did happen to catch a post written by a woman who clearly had no children going on and on about the huge inconvenience of having to sit next to a 5 year old, and the real kicker, it was solely because the parents wanted the “luxury” of extra leg space and didn’t want to be bothered with their child. Now, I can not speak for all parents but I have never met a parent that would leave their baby unsupervised with a completely random stranger for an unspecified amount of time for their own luxury and comfort. I was really upset by this post because I have seen so many like it. So I did what I usually don’t and commented. I truly had to, I felt and still do! that this was something worth speaking up. I did give a disclaimer and my comment went a little something like this, ‘ I don’t usually comment but this one made my blood boil a little. Moming is HARD and when traveling with babies we are STRESSED. We see the eye rolls, we hear the loud exhales as we are walking down the plane aisle.  I promise we are doing everything in our power to keep our children entertained and quiet. BUT at the end of the end of the day they are KIDS they don’t know any better, you should! Also! unless the parents explicitly told you that they weren’t seated next to one of their children for their own “luxury” you should shut the F up (I didn’t actually write the word) and stop assuming and shaming the parents. You do not know their circumstance or reasoning and it is not ok to publicly assume. Parents and our children are people too and we have as much of a right to be on that plane as you do. Next time you should consider charting a private plane so you don’t need to be bothered with other travelers.’ A bit harsh? Maybe. But I stood by it then and I absolutely stand by it now. Her post seemed obnoxious, entitled and not even remotely kind or considerate to people with children. Like I stated in the comment, WE GET IT. You don’t want to sit next to us or our babies on a flight. I cringe the whole way to my seat and try not to make eye contact. I have an entire carry on devoted to making sure they are quiet and entertained, and someone who doesn’t know a parents circumstance goes on and on about HER inconvenience.

My comment was met with many “likes” I’m assuming from other mothers who felt the exact same way, and some who touted that it is not anyone else’s responsibility to babysit your children on a flight, a comment that I agree with. It was also tagged with a #GTLKindness from a moderator. Imagine that? I am the one being unkind! I quickly responded that I didn’t think this mom shaming post was at all kind, and I hoped she was speaking in general as a reminder to all. I also have to note that I had seen several comments from various mothers noting that the site has become such a mom shaming hub, and that we should be considerate of parents as well. I was in the midst of explaining why we shouldn’t mom shame and while I would feel uncomfortable not having my children next to me at any time, but especially during flight, I am not going to pretend to know anyone else’s circumstances. It did not take me long to write the response, but I did not want to come off as ‘angry’ a term given to firm and outspoken women, and make sure that I hit every point. As I hit post, I realized that my post had been deleted. No warning, or anything other than the #GTLKindness that had been posted before which I had already responded to. No other negative word had been spoken by me and I didn’t even have a chance to respond, before being completely silenced. What was still standing strong? that mom shaming post. What does that say about woman empowerment? What does that say about where mothers stand on the ‘woman’ spectrum? Needless to say I immediately left this group extremely disheartened with the moderators and the female empowerment they say they stand for.

This post is not to shame or to call out only Girls Love Travel. It is so much bigger than that. This is not the only avenue in which I’ve seen people, places, and sites that scream woman empowerment stop short of extending that empowerment, kindness and consideration to mothers. We’ve got to do better as women. Just as we empower and support ALL women, don’t forget that behind the diaper bags, and food spit up stains, the dark circles under our eyes and children in our arms, stands a woman. We are worth empowering too.

Merry Mental Health And a Peaceful New Year

Hi friends! We are in the final countdown for Christmas and there SO many things we still need to get done. With so many things to still check off our list, it is easy to feel a bit out of control. Every year I always say I’m going to Christmas shop through out the year, that we are going to start sending out Christmas cards early so on and so on… Every year I am in the same boat, but maybe that is the thrill of it? At least that is what I tell myself! There is one thing though, that I have firmly checked off my list and I truly see a difference in how I feel through out the year and especially the holidays.

There seems to have been a big shift on where we place importance and finally it is on ourselves, our mental health and our peace of mind. It seems to me that in the years past there has been so much pressure on reconciling with people at the detriment of your own happiness. This year the message has continued to be geared towards keeping strong bonds with your family but where the big difference comes in to play is that while family is important, it is not more important than your own personal healing, and happiness. Family is, has always been and always will be the most important area of my life. As I get older and (hopefully) wiser I understand that while we all deserve love and acceptance not everyone needs or even deserves to be invited in to your space. I have met many friends along the way that haven’t spoken to a parent, a sibling, or other family members and it used to really surprise me. I remember often ending the conversation with “hopefully things will get better and you will be together again”. Sometimes though, it is not meant to and that is perfectly ok.

This is not to say that someone you are having a small issue with should be left alone, or that forgiveness is not worth exploring. But, if there is an issue that threatens your happiness and your peace, if there is a person who continuously causes you pain or attempts to make you feel small; if a person continuously disregards your feelings and ignores your boundaries, then it is ok to cut this toxicity out of your life. There is no guilt in speaking up for yourself or in knowing your value. Looking back, there have been times where I have let the comfort and happiness of others control my boundaries and my feelings. These last two years, inspired by my babies and how I want them to hold strong to their boundaries, I have been more assertive in protecting my peace. Heart racing, voice trembling and knees shaking I will say NO! to anyone that threatens the happiness or the comfort of myself, my children or my husband. We have one life to live, it should be shared with those that truly love you, encourage you and celebrate you. My wish for all of you is that you are surrounded by love, peace, health, and family- whoever that is to you. Healthiest of Holidays, and a peaceful New Year!

Give A Little LOVE. Have A Little Hope

HAPPY MONDAY Mamas!! I am feeling refreshed (well, for a mom of two teeny tinys!) and I can easily tell you why. My #MamaMustHave this week was #datenight! The Mr. and I celebrated 12 years together on Saturday!

The last few night outs that we’ve had, we’ve gone the “fancy” route. Of course it’s fun to get dressed up, especially because we don’t always get to anymore, but sometimes it feels like there’s so much pressure on the night because we don’t get them too often. So to throw it back to old times we went for causal fun and just hung out. You guys! We had the best night, we sat at the bar- no worries about getting the “romantic table” we laughed so hard and even ordered some shots 🙈 Although we love talking about our babes, we only talked about us. We laughed hard at our old 20 year old selves and reminisced. I love Billy as my husband, I adore him as the father of my children. But in the busyness of life, we often forget to value each other as best friends, as partners, and team mates.

We are very fortunate that we have my family very close by so we are able to have the kids taken care of by them. I know not everyone is this lucky and it can be difficult to get out of the house. Dating doesn’t always mean going out, some of the best memories we have or our best times were nights in. I know we get tired and it’s hard! So this week I challenge you mamas, set the intention for love. Set up your mind for love, and open your heart to it. Do one thing every day that you feel you are putting off or to enhance the romance.

Send a flirty text.

Post a love note on the mirror.

Go in for a kiss, the REAL THING not just a peck on the lips.

Ask him to dance.

Pat him on the butt.

Give him a wink.

Turn the tv off and have dinner at the table.

Bring up a funny or a favorite memory, and reminisce.

Hug. Hold Hands. Touch.

I also want to say, my last two mama must haves have been seemingly centered around my husband. As women, we always know when we need something from our relationships and often want our husbands to ‘just know’ what to do. (Maybe that’s just me?!) But I found that while I wanted my husband to be more loving, or romantic or whatever the case may be that I wasn’t showing those same actions in my relationship. Treat others how you would like to be treated, that’s what we teach our babies, right? When we are shown love, when we are praised we often blossom and want to do the same for the other. So while it may seem like maybe you are the one putting in the work at the beginning, you will see that return to you tenfold. Equally important, your babies will be a witness and learn how to love and respect someone and especially the kind of love and respect they will always deserve.

Let me know how you showed and opened your heart to love this week! I am always looking for new ideas. Let me know how it made YOU feel to woo your partner!

When Does It End?

When Does It End?

This morning as my baby boy nuzzled in to my husband and I, I held him extra tight. When I looked at my phone the first thing that popped up was the mass shooting in Thousand Oaks and I immediately burst in to tears. When does it end? WHY is this happening? Is this our new normal? What is this world we are creating for our babies? I can not remember a time when I was in elementary school, middle school, or even high school when we were ever concerned about peers with guns. I never watched a debate or thought about ever hearing elected officials speak on giving our severely underpaid teachers firearms. I never practiced a shelter in place for an active shooter. Sadly, this will not be my children’s reality.

I’ve been obsessed with crime shows for as long as I can remember and while so many people love them, I sometimes feel like I can’t shake them afterward. I have always felt so paranoid about predators, or murderers and have actively advised, and excessively pestered my sister about constantly checking her surroundings, about never being on her phone when shes alone and constantly remaining vigilant about her surroundings. While it is so important to me to teach my babies about safety, about strangers, about what is a safe touch and what is not, I often struggle with finding a balance. I want my babies to enjoy, bask in and celebrate their life. I don’t want them to worry about every unfamiliar face, or every dark corner. Life is an exciting adventure and I want them to experience it in full. My greatest desire is to soak up every single one of their worries, every doubt, every hesitation. But How?! I live with so many of them myself. How do I keep them safe, without teaching them to be afraid? I do not want to place my fears on them. I recently had a conversation with my husband as we were discussing all the different school options for our babies, as we want to be as well informed as possible for when the time comes. I have been looking in to home schooling and for a lot of people, I think it is a phenomenal option. I had to have a really honest look at myself and I realized that although a wonderful option for many, I was not interested in home schooling for the right reasons. The biggest draw for me was that I wouldn’t have to let go of my babies. I just don’t feel that is healthy mentally, emotionally, or socially for my babies or for me.

There are so many books, courses and articles on how to speak to our babies about certain dangers,but how do we protect them from something like mass shootings? How do we restrict them from going to the movies? The mall? A concert or even out to eat with their friends? Especially when they are of age, when they are no longer in our homes. When we go out I often look for the exits, I don’t like sitting with my back to entrances, and I distinctly remember going to the movies with a girlfriend and being so uneasy because I saw a man by himself who kept switching seats. I can not tell you what movie we even saw but I remember the pit in my stomach as I stared at this man waiting for him to jump up… I can’t even get myself to put in to the universe the end of that thought. When I had my babies the world was suddenly a thousand times more beautiful, but simultaneously the harsh reality and fear set in. All I want to do is protect them, while being able to set them free. I guess as parents there are many contradictions about what we want for our babies and wishes versus reality. I have no answers, and an overwhelmingly amount of questions. At the end of the day all we can do is hold our babies tight, teach them as much as we can, and pray and/or put out in to the universe that they will be alright.

THIS HAS TO END. If anyone has any ideas about how we can bring change, how we can band together and stop this. I can not see another life cut short, I can not see another parent mourning the life of their baby. I can not see another sibling crying at a grave. This is not a burden that a child should ever have to carry. It is truly heartbreaking, but it can not be another hashtag, another moment of silence, another life lost in vain.


I haven’t stopped crying, my heart is in pieces watching these parents beg to see their babies. I will never understand why. I will never understand how. I will never understand. This can not be a reality and much less the future that our babies live in.